Светлана Едгарова Назарова

[Friend/Acquaintance Filter- this is SUPER generous. If you’ve EVER had a decent conversation with her, consider yourself on it.]

Once upon a time… [She laughs a bit here.] Now that just sounds silly, doesn’t it? I always wanted to live in a fairy tale, but…well, the last one I went to wasn’t exactly what I thought it would be. But I always did that at one point in my life. Think of things as better than they really are, I mean.

This place has changed me. Not…for the better, either. I don’t think that way anymore. And…that’s no me.

So I’m leaving. And I really wish I could stay, but I let this place break me. Something I saw coming a long time ago, honestly. I’ll miss you all, but I need to face my life again. Or at least attempt it.

[Infirmary Filter]

It's been a pleasure working with all of you. I know that we have seen our ups and down and that you will continue to see those ups and downs, even after I'm gone. The infirmary has been a source of pride for me and a way for me to go and escape. Just don't forget why we're all really here- to help people. That's it. That's all we have to do.

I'm sorry to leave you right before something happens- but that's just it...something always happens. There will never be a good time. But you're all capable doctors and healers of some kind. You can face whatever happens.

[Private to Four]

Can I ask for one last ride, Doctor?

[Private to O’Brien]

Last chance, comrade. I’m not going to play anymore.

[It sounds as if she's just finished crying. There's a clink as she drops a spoon onto a dish and she finally speaks up.]

I said...I hope it goes down. [There's a nervous giggle.] But I don't know where down is. [Pause as the ship rumbles a bit. She takes in a trembling breath.] Looks like I was right, though.

Who knew that I would have them back? Who knew it would work like this?

I looked out my door today and saw the Darkness. I didn't know that Light Sorceress could curse people like this. Because that's what it is, you realize. It's not a flood. It's not...anything the Admiral has done. Condemn him if you like. It's more futile than usual.

[She turns on the camera. Those mentioned in the post who could see the curse will be able to see the vortex around her, invading her room. Barge magic, yeah]

I almost destroyed Moscow last time this happened. Last time, it was unintentional. Last time, they could talk me down from it and I could be saved from their...alternative method. [A bitter laugh.] Death.

They said once you pick a side that you can't change to the other one. Light to Darkness...all of that. I don't see why. It's so much easier to hate like this, isn't it? When you've been pushed so far, when so many people have kicked you in the face, it's easy to fall.

That's what power is, isn't it, O'Brien? [She reaches forward to turn off the transmission before she starts crying again. Then pauses.]

Someone might want to check on Petronilla. [BECAUSE SHE'S NOT. That's all!]