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[greatlightother]

[It sounds as if she's just finished crying. There's a clink as she drops a spoon onto a dish and she finally speaks up.]

I said...I hope it goes down. [There's a nervous giggle.] But I don't know where down is. [Pause as the ship rumbles a bit. She takes in a trembling breath.] Looks like I was right, though.

Who knew that I would have them back? Who knew it would work like this?

I looked out my door today and saw the Darkness. I didn't know that Light Sorceress could curse people like this. Because that's what it is, you realize. It's not a flood. It's not...anything the Admiral has done. Condemn him if you like. It's more futile than usual.

[She turns on the camera. Those mentioned in the post who could see the curse will be able to see the vortex around her, invading her room. Barge magic, yeah]

I almost destroyed Moscow last time this happened. Last time, it was unintentional. Last time, they could talk me down from it and I could be saved from their...alternative method. [A bitter laugh.] Death.

They said once you pick a side that you can't change to the other one. Light to Darkness...all of that. I don't see why. It's so much easier to hate like this, isn't it? When you've been pushed so far, when so many people have kicked you in the face, it's easy to fall.

That's what power is, isn't it, O'Brien? [She reaches forward to turn off the transmission before she starts crying again. Then pauses.]

Someone might want to check on Petronilla. [BECAUSE SHE'S NOT. That's all!]

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[doctor-scarf.livejournal.com]

I'm coming to your room and I'm bringing cake, K9 and jelly babies.

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

No, Doctor. Just don't worry about me.

[doctor-scarf.livejournal.com]

Sveta, of course I'm worried about you. I'm your friend.

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

Tomorrow then. I don't...I can't do anything right now.

[doctor-scarf.livejournal.com]

I'm right outside your door.

[Indeed, you can hear some knocking on your door now Sveta.]

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

[She sent Neil away with the Doctor's arrival and opened the door for him.]

Come in. [She kept in her tears this time.]

[doctor-scarf.livejournal.com]

[The Doctor entered the room, smiling slightly at Sveta. He placed a slice of cake on a nearby table. There was a fork on the plate and a bite taken out of the cake.]

I hope you don't mind. I had to taste it to make sure it didn't go bad. I hope you don't like chocolate.

[He grinned widely, cake still visible on his teeth.]

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

[Trust the Doctor to make it alright. Or at least make it seem that way.]

You are impossible. [It was said fondly.]

[doctor-scarf.livejournal.com]

For some reason, I've heard that before. [The Doctor smiled at Sveta, as K9 whirred into the room.]

Do you want to talk about this?

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

[She shrugged.] Do you think I need to? [She put a hand on K9 gently.]

[doctor-scarf.livejournal.com]

I would like you to. It might make you feel better.

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

What am I supposed to say that hasn't been said already? [She sat down heavily on the couch and stared at the far wall.]

[doctor-scarf.livejournal.com]

I don't know. What do you want to say?

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

That I didn't want this to happen. That I didn't want everything to turn out like this. [She buried her face in her hands.]

[doctor-scarf.livejournal.com]

That much is obvious. You can't change it, though.

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

So what can I do? [She looked up to him hopefully.]

[doctor-scarf.livejournal.com]

Multiple things. You could try to fix it yourself. You could ask the Admiral to fix it. However, one thing is certain, you have to apologize to the Barge.