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[greatlightother]

[It sounds as if she's just finished crying. There's a clink as she drops a spoon onto a dish and she finally speaks up.]

I said...I hope it goes down. [There's a nervous giggle.] But I don't know where down is. [Pause as the ship rumbles a bit. She takes in a trembling breath.] Looks like I was right, though.

Who knew that I would have them back? Who knew it would work like this?

I looked out my door today and saw the Darkness. I didn't know that Light Sorceress could curse people like this. Because that's what it is, you realize. It's not a flood. It's not...anything the Admiral has done. Condemn him if you like. It's more futile than usual.

[She turns on the camera. Those mentioned in the post who could see the curse will be able to see the vortex around her, invading her room. Barge magic, yeah]

I almost destroyed Moscow last time this happened. Last time, it was unintentional. Last time, they could talk me down from it and I could be saved from their...alternative method. [A bitter laugh.] Death.

They said once you pick a side that you can't change to the other one. Light to Darkness...all of that. I don't see why. It's so much easier to hate like this, isn't it? When you've been pushed so far, when so many people have kicked you in the face, it's easy to fall.

That's what power is, isn't it, O'Brien? [She reaches forward to turn off the transmission before she starts crying again. Then pauses.]

Someone might want to check on Petronilla. [BECAUSE SHE'S NOT. That's all!]

Comments

[rass-bestie.livejournal.com]

So, what, you want us to kill you? Or is there a way to talk you down?

sorry. he might be threadjacky.

[kingfor-aday.livejournal.com]

Of course there's a damn way. Nobody's getting killed. Even if that's what she wants.

[rass-bestie.livejournal.com]

Howie, I'm not suggesting that we do, I'm suggesting it's not a very good idea to announce that on a public post where there are plenty of murderers to go around.

Please leave me alone.

[kingfor-aday.livejournal.com]

I wasn't really talking to you. I was talking to any of those murderers who might get the idea it would be alright. They'll have to come through me, that's all. It was more of a general statement than anything against you.

Got to go, anyway.

[rass-bestie.livejournal.com]

Well, then make a post, Howie, and don't jump down my throat.

[kingfor-aday.livejournal.com]

I can't do three things at once, you know! [sorry. throat got jumped down.]

[rass-bestie.livejournal.com]

Take me off your stupid list then!

[kingfor-aday.livejournal.com]

you were never damn well on it. Just...

I'm going.

[ifightfor]

Understood.

[Oops.]

Private

[strangehistorian]

JA307020.

[This is the tone your mom gets when she catches you coming home an hour after your curfew. Not that Rinzler has a mom. Or a curfew.]

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

I don't want you to do anything.

I don't give a damn what you do.

[rass-bestie.livejournal.com]

Considering you're apparently keen to hurt us all, it's clear you're lying.

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

I'm not lying. I've told you what's going on so that you don't continue thinking this might be a flood.

You at least deserve the truth.

[rass-bestie.livejournal.com]

Then why mention death?

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

Because it's how people deal with things. There. And here. Death. Murder. Killing. Violence.

Nothing ever changes.

[rass-bestie.livejournal.com]

A lot of people don't. Howie, for example. You don't see them here because here is where those people learn to find another way. But there are millions of people living their lives without killing a single soul.

So you can't see that here. Or can't have it where you were. Generalising is not fair to those few who fight that, who are working with their inmates to prove that there are other ways.

Please don't invite your death. [Like you've invited mine.]