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greatlightother) wrote2011-10-05 08:59 pm
greatlightother) wrote2011-10-05 08:59 pm
Entry tags:
- all kinds of headaches,
- already lost,
- apologies are no fun,
- checking on other people,
- don't want to be a bother...,
- guilt tripping herself,
- infirmary bidness,
- not homesick,
- not thinking of anton,
- o'brien,
- probably a little emo,
- surrogate girlfriend number three,
- the fourth doctor,
- where there is no darkness
-113-
[Friend/Acquaintance Filter- this is SUPER generous. If you’ve EVER had a decent conversation with her, consider yourself on it.]
Once upon a time… [She laughs a bit here.] Now that just sounds silly, doesn’t it? I always wanted to live in a fairy tale, but…well, the last one I went to wasn’t exactly what I thought it would be. But I always did that at one point in my life. Think of things as better than they really are, I mean.
This place has changed me. Not…for the better, either. I don’t think that way anymore. And…that’s no me.
So I’m leaving. And I really wish I could stay, but I let this place break me. Something I saw coming a long time ago, honestly. I’ll miss you all, but I need to face my life again. Or at least attempt it.
[Infirmary Filter]
It's been a pleasure working with all of you. I know that we have seen our ups and down and that you will continue to see those ups and downs, even after I'm gone. The infirmary has been a source of pride for me and a way for me to go and escape. Just don't forget why we're all really here- to help people. That's it. That's all we have to do.
I'm sorry to leave you right before something happens- but that's just it...something always happens. There will never be a good time. But you're all capable doctors and healers of some kind. You can face whatever happens.
[Private to Four]
Can I ask for one last ride, Doctor?
[Private to O’Brien]
Last chance, comrade. I’m not going to play anymore.
Once upon a time… [She laughs a bit here.] Now that just sounds silly, doesn’t it? I always wanted to live in a fairy tale, but…well, the last one I went to wasn’t exactly what I thought it would be. But I always did that at one point in my life. Think of things as better than they really are, I mean.
This place has changed me. Not…for the better, either. I don’t think that way anymore. And…that’s no me.
So I’m leaving. And I really wish I could stay, but I let this place break me. Something I saw coming a long time ago, honestly. I’ll miss you all, but I need to face my life again. Or at least attempt it.
[Infirmary Filter]
It's been a pleasure working with all of you. I know that we have seen our ups and down and that you will continue to see those ups and downs, even after I'm gone. The infirmary has been a source of pride for me and a way for me to go and escape. Just don't forget why we're all really here- to help people. That's it. That's all we have to do.
I'm sorry to leave you right before something happens- but that's just it...something always happens. There will never be a good time. But you're all capable doctors and healers of some kind. You can face whatever happens.
[Private to Four]
Can I ask for one last ride, Doctor?
[Private to O’Brien]
Last chance, comrade. I’m not going to play anymore.
Spam.
Spam.
Just have an amazing, fantastic and brilliant life.
Spam.
You, too.
Spam.
Maybe I'll see you again sometime, yeah? If you're ever in Loch Walton, Scotland in 2008, look me up.
Spam.