Svetlana Nazarova (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
greatlightother) wrote2011-10-05 08:59 pm
greatlightother) wrote2011-10-05 08:59 pm
Entry tags:
- all kinds of headaches,
- already lost,
- apologies are no fun,
- checking on other people,
- don't want to be a bother...,
- guilt tripping herself,
- infirmary bidness,
- not homesick,
- not thinking of anton,
- o'brien,
- probably a little emo,
- surrogate girlfriend number three,
- the fourth doctor,
- where there is no darkness
-113-
[Friend/Acquaintance Filter- this is SUPER generous. If you’ve EVER had a decent conversation with her, consider yourself on it.]
Once upon a time… [She laughs a bit here.] Now that just sounds silly, doesn’t it? I always wanted to live in a fairy tale, but…well, the last one I went to wasn’t exactly what I thought it would be. But I always did that at one point in my life. Think of things as better than they really are, I mean.
This place has changed me. Not…for the better, either. I don’t think that way anymore. And…that’s no me.
So I’m leaving. And I really wish I could stay, but I let this place break me. Something I saw coming a long time ago, honestly. I’ll miss you all, but I need to face my life again. Or at least attempt it.
[Infirmary Filter]
It's been a pleasure working with all of you. I know that we have seen our ups and down and that you will continue to see those ups and downs, even after I'm gone. The infirmary has been a source of pride for me and a way for me to go and escape. Just don't forget why we're all really here- to help people. That's it. That's all we have to do.
I'm sorry to leave you right before something happens- but that's just it...something always happens. There will never be a good time. But you're all capable doctors and healers of some kind. You can face whatever happens.
[Private to Four]
Can I ask for one last ride, Doctor?
[Private to O’Brien]
Last chance, comrade. I’m not going to play anymore.
Once upon a time… [She laughs a bit here.] Now that just sounds silly, doesn’t it? I always wanted to live in a fairy tale, but…well, the last one I went to wasn’t exactly what I thought it would be. But I always did that at one point in my life. Think of things as better than they really are, I mean.
This place has changed me. Not…for the better, either. I don’t think that way anymore. And…that’s no me.
So I’m leaving. And I really wish I could stay, but I let this place break me. Something I saw coming a long time ago, honestly. I’ll miss you all, but I need to face my life again. Or at least attempt it.
[Infirmary Filter]
It's been a pleasure working with all of you. I know that we have seen our ups and down and that you will continue to see those ups and downs, even after I'm gone. The infirmary has been a source of pride for me and a way for me to go and escape. Just don't forget why we're all really here- to help people. That's it. That's all we have to do.
I'm sorry to leave you right before something happens- but that's just it...something always happens. There will never be a good time. But you're all capable doctors and healers of some kind. You can face whatever happens.
[Private to Four]
Can I ask for one last ride, Doctor?
[Private to O’Brien]
Last chance, comrade. I’m not going to play anymore.
[Private]
Promise you won't forget me.
[Private]
[And it is worth more than most of his promises.]
You'll take what I gave you?
[Because he wants her to remember him, too. Because material things are the only way he knows how to show that he cares.]
[Private]
[Private]
[He was never any good at goodbyes. But he is more than used to people leaving.]
I'm glad. Not to see you go, of course. Certainly not. But to see you leave the poison. I wish you only happiness, Svetlana Nazarova.