greatlightother: (thinking of all the things)
Svetlana Nazarova ([personal profile] greatlightother) wrote2011-10-05 08:59 pm

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[Friend/Acquaintance Filter- this is SUPER generous. If you’ve EVER had a decent conversation with her, consider yourself on it.]

Once upon a time… [She laughs a bit here.] Now that just sounds silly, doesn’t it? I always wanted to live in a fairy tale, but…well, the last one I went to wasn’t exactly what I thought it would be. But I always did that at one point in my life. Think of things as better than they really are, I mean.

This place has changed me. Not…for the better, either. I don’t think that way anymore. And…that’s no me.

So I’m leaving. And I really wish I could stay, but I let this place break me. Something I saw coming a long time ago, honestly. I’ll miss you all, but I need to face my life again. Or at least attempt it.

[Infirmary Filter]

It's been a pleasure working with all of you. I know that we have seen our ups and down and that you will continue to see those ups and downs, even after I'm gone. The infirmary has been a source of pride for me and a way for me to go and escape. Just don't forget why we're all really here- to help people. That's it. That's all we have to do.

I'm sorry to leave you right before something happens- but that's just it...something always happens. There will never be a good time. But you're all capable doctors and healers of some kind. You can face whatever happens.

[Private to Four]

Can I ask for one last ride, Doctor?

[Private to O’Brien]

Last chance, comrade. I’m not going to play anymore.
hatestriangles: (well shit)

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[personal profile] hatestriangles 2011-10-06 07:56 am (UTC)(link)
You--

Are you fucking kidding me? You're just... leaving?

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[identity profile] greatlightother.livejournal.com 2011-10-06 10:31 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, Perry. I'm so sorry. I have to.
hatestriangles: (jsyk that was kind of dumb)

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[personal profile] hatestriangles 2011-10-06 10:53 am (UTC)(link)
Why? [He totally knows why. But he's Perry and nothing if not stubborn.] What happened to 'It'll pick up.'?
Edited 2011-10-06 11:21 (UTC)

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[identity profile] greatlightother.livejournal.com 2011-10-06 11:40 am (UTC)(link)
It will pick up. But I can't sit around and wait for that to happen. I have to make it happen.

Perry...I...I will miss you so much.
hatestriangles: (bathroom mirror)

Private - he's going to be an asshole about this for a little while :c

[personal profile] hatestriangles 2011-10-06 12:18 pm (UTC)(link)
You can't-- [He breaks off and there's a long, long silence. His voice is harder when he continues.] Don't worry, princess, I'm sure you'll forget about the whole place soon enough.

Private - :(

[identity profile] greatlightother.livejournal.com 2011-10-06 02:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Perry, please. Please don't do this.
hatestriangles: (/built like a tank)

Private - :ccc

[personal profile] hatestriangles 2011-10-06 05:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Why not? What does it even matter?

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[identity profile] greatlightother.livejournal.com 2011-10-06 07:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Because you're my friend, Perry. There's no way I'd forget you. And I don't want you to think that of me.
hatestriangles: (i'm going to die here)

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[personal profile] hatestriangles 2011-10-06 11:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Fuck off. [But his heart's not in it.]

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[identity profile] greatlightother.livejournal.com 2011-10-06 11:11 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry. [But she leaves a small box of books she thought he'd like outside his door along with a note that reads: Perry, I didn't want to hurt you or anyone else. But I can't keep running away and being afraid. And that's what I was doing here.]
hatestriangles: (awkward hand)

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[personal profile] hatestriangles 2011-10-06 11:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[It's a while before he sends it-- maybe she's gone, maybe she's not-- but he finally opens the connection again.] I'm going to miss you too.