greatlightother: (you hurt my feelings)
Svetlana Nazarova ([personal profile] greatlightother) wrote2011-07-08 11:27 am

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[It sounds as if she's just finished crying. There's a clink as she drops a spoon onto a dish and she finally speaks up.]

I said...I hope it goes down. [There's a nervous giggle.] But I don't know where down is. [Pause as the ship rumbles a bit. She takes in a trembling breath.] Looks like I was right, though.

Who knew that I would have them back? Who knew it would work like this?

I looked out my door today and saw the Darkness. I didn't know that Light Sorceress could curse people like this. Because that's what it is, you realize. It's not a flood. It's not...anything the Admiral has done. Condemn him if you like. It's more futile than usual.

[She turns on the camera. Those mentioned in the post who could see the curse will be able to see the vortex around her, invading her room. Barge magic, yeah]

I almost destroyed Moscow last time this happened. Last time, it was unintentional. Last time, they could talk me down from it and I could be saved from their...alternative method. [A bitter laugh.] Death.

They said once you pick a side that you can't change to the other one. Light to Darkness...all of that. I don't see why. It's so much easier to hate like this, isn't it? When you've been pushed so far, when so many people have kicked you in the face, it's easy to fall.

That's what power is, isn't it, O'Brien? [She reaches forward to turn off the transmission before she starts crying again. Then pauses.]

Someone might want to check on Petronilla. [BECAUSE SHE'S NOT. That's all!]

[identity profile] buywithme.livejournal.com 2011-07-08 05:58 pm (UTC)(link)
But you hate us enough.

I'm not going to try and tell you that the people here don't deserve this, or that you're a bad person for having a breaking point, because I know that you're not a bad person, Sister, and honestly, if you were to have to kill a random sample of the population, then doing it to the inhabitants of the Barge will probably give you a fairly good ratio of people who deserve it, to people who don't deserve it, I just...

I'm just sorry that you're so unhappy that you had to do this. I hope that after this is all over, you'll be all right again someday.

[identity profile] greatlightother.livejournal.com 2011-07-08 06:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Prefect...

[Nope. She's done. Time for more crying.]