greatlightother: (you hurt my feelings)
Svetlana Nazarova ([personal profile] greatlightother) wrote2011-07-08 11:27 am

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[It sounds as if she's just finished crying. There's a clink as she drops a spoon onto a dish and she finally speaks up.]

I said...I hope it goes down. [There's a nervous giggle.] But I don't know where down is. [Pause as the ship rumbles a bit. She takes in a trembling breath.] Looks like I was right, though.

Who knew that I would have them back? Who knew it would work like this?

I looked out my door today and saw the Darkness. I didn't know that Light Sorceress could curse people like this. Because that's what it is, you realize. It's not a flood. It's not...anything the Admiral has done. Condemn him if you like. It's more futile than usual.

[She turns on the camera. Those mentioned in the post who could see the curse will be able to see the vortex around her, invading her room. Barge magic, yeah]

I almost destroyed Moscow last time this happened. Last time, it was unintentional. Last time, they could talk me down from it and I could be saved from their...alternative method. [A bitter laugh.] Death.

They said once you pick a side that you can't change to the other one. Light to Darkness...all of that. I don't see why. It's so much easier to hate like this, isn't it? When you've been pushed so far, when so many people have kicked you in the face, it's easy to fall.

That's what power is, isn't it, O'Brien? [She reaches forward to turn off the transmission before she starts crying again. Then pauses.]

Someone might want to check on Petronilla. [BECAUSE SHE'S NOT. That's all!]

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[identity profile] greatlightother.livejournal.com 2011-07-08 05:35 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't. Not everyone.

This isn't about you.

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[identity profile] naughtbutlife.livejournal.com 2011-07-08 05:41 pm (UTC)(link)
It matters not, Sveta. You should not ever be made to feel as though you've fallen.

What happens if the curse is allowed to continue? Does it worsen?

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[identity profile] naughtbutlife.livejournal.com 2011-07-08 05:51 pm (UTC)(link)
You said you almost destroyed a city last time, and it was unintentional.

Aye, then probably. Quite probably.

I will not let anyone kill you, Sveta. I just...cannot, you know.

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[identity profile] greatlightother.livejournal.com 2011-07-08 05:54 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't care if they do.

But tell the Admiral not to bring me back, Angelica. Tell him. I don't care where that lands me. I'll take my chance with the unknown.

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[identity profile] naughtbutlife.livejournal.com 2011-07-08 06:01 pm (UTC)(link)
I care, damn it!

For the Love of God, Sveta, please do not ask me to do such a thing.

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[identity profile] naughtbutlife.livejournal.com 2011-07-08 06:05 pm (UTC)(link)
But I love you, madam, and I always shall. No matter what happens.

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[identity profile] greatlightother.livejournal.com 2011-07-08 06:06 pm (UTC)(link)
And I love you, Angelica.

I regret this hurting you.

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[identity profile] naughtbutlife.livejournal.com 2011-07-08 06:29 pm (UTC)(link)
I regret that it has come to this.

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[identity profile] greatlightother.livejournal.com 2011-07-08 06:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Stop that. Don't regret anything!

It's not your fault!

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[identity profile] naughtbutlife.livejournal.com 2011-07-08 06:39 pm (UTC)(link)
And why should I not? Look you now at what is happening, what you have brought upon yourself and the ship! You came and spoke to me but a few days ago, you were clearly not yourself--

I do not wish to lose you.

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[identity profile] greatlightother.livejournal.com 2011-07-08 06:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Angelica, I've been lost for a long time now.

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[identity profile] naughtbutlife.livejournal.com 2011-07-08 06:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh God.