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[greatlightother]

[Friends Filter- minus Angelica. Honestly, if you think you're here, you are. If you're not sure, ask.]

I need a distr- change. Just something small. Something that maybe no one but me will ever notice, even. I'm going to paint my room and, I suppose I could just ask the Admiral to do it for me, but no. I want to do this without his interference.

I'd like it if anyone would be willing to help, though!

[Infirmary Filter]

Does anyone have any experience with pseudocyesis? [She is just stubbornly hoping she's right.]

[Private to Petronilla]

I need your help tomorrow morning. It won't take long, I promise.

[Spam for Angelica]

[Sveta had been worried for Angelica. But, unfortunately, by the time she was able to get to what Iago had said, it had already been taken down and Sveta could do nothing more than hope the aftermath wasn't as ugly as she anticipated.

...it seemed that hope had been completely dashed. So, as soon as she had a spare moment, she rushed off to find her friend, knocking at the door rather apprehensively.] Angelica. It's Sveta...

Comments

Re: private

[deepdowndark.livejournal.com]

What will happen without you?

Re: private

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

I don't know. Olga can take my place.

Re: private

[deepdowndark.livejournal.com]

They wouldn't need you if someone could take your place.

Re: private

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

I don't want to be needed like that.

Re: private

[deepdowndark.livejournal.com]

We don't get to choose what we're needed for.

Re: private

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

Why not?

Re: private

[deepdowndark.livejournal.com]

Because sometimes duty over takes choice.

Re: private

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

Duty? To be used?

Re: private

[deepdowndark.livejournal.com]

Used to overcome something which could cause a lot of damage.

All games require pawns. You sound like less of a pawn and more of a queen, and you can't escape it, so take the duty over the choice. It might get you choice in the end.

Re: private

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

I don't want to kill anyone.

Re: private

[deepdowndark.livejournal.com]

Who must die?

Re: private

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

Dark Others.

Re: private

[deepdowndark.livejournal.com]

Your enemies.

I don't see the problem.

Re: private

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

Because they're people. If I've learned anything here, it's that.

Re: private

[deepdowndark.livejournal.com]

But they're not your people.

Re: private

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

Damon was not my people. I would never harm him. Ever.

They're still people, Ardent. It doesn't matter if they're Light or Dark.

Re: private

[deepdowndark.livejournal.com]

Because you've let personal want take over necessity.

I killed people who weren't even my enemies for my duty to the Laws and Dwarfkind. Duty comes first.

Re: private

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

Not when it comes to another person's life. If they were harming me or the people I care for, then I would feel a sense of duty then. But they are doing exactly what I'm doing. They're only killing because they think they have to.

And that's not right.

Re: private

[deepdowndark.livejournal.com]

Or they're killing because they were made that way.

And they must be countered. [projecting now, sorry, Sveta.]

Re: private

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

Made that way?

That's beyond ridiculous.

Re: private

[deepdowndark.livejournal.com]

Trolls were. Made as subhuman killing monstrosities. Because they shouldn't have been made.

Is that any different to a vampire in your world?

(different to one in mine, which is why I make the distinction, but is it?)

Re: private

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

I used to think so. But not anymore.

Stop saying that about Trolls. Or any other beings.

Re: private

[deepdowndark.livejournal.com]

It's completely true.

Re: private

[greatlightother.livejournal.com]

Ugh. Fine.